it's been awhile.

It's been awhile. but when has that ever stopped me?  I feel like writing, and I haven't written in a long time. Even if my words are crap, I can't help but put them down. It's like my past self is whispering to me, asking: what happened? where did I go?

Much has happened over the years, much has changed. My family grew apart. I started working at subway. I became an Orthodox Christian. I met a wonderful woman, and became engaged. Life moves so quickly I have to stop and wonder where the time went.

Am I the same person I was years ago? I know the answer is yes, but not quite. I've changed. My dreams have changed. I've matured, and i'd like to think that's a good thing.

But at heart I'm still the same. Still weak. Still stupid. Still making mistakes. Still learning. Still can't craft a decent sentence, much less a decent article to convey my thoughts.

I think all of us are still learning, and we have so far to go. Bet we're only alone if we think we're alone. There are so many people on the same path, and there are so many people who have gone before us, so much wisdom to guide us, so many great words passed down by the Church and by the Holy men and women who went before us.

An entire world is waiting if we care to reach beyond ourselves.